Dad is now in a better place with no pain.
On Monday afternoon dad quietly passed away, the last time I got to talk to him was Saturday morning when we got him up and he came out onto the deck.
My brother took this photo later in the day after dad died. We thought it was going to rain and saw a rainbow across the river and then this. This is the view my dad would have seen from the porch on the night he died….this may be his welcome to heaven. It wasn’t the sun as that was behind us.
His pain became unbearable within 15 minutes Saturday morning and he wanted back in bed as that was the only place he could get out of pain. That was the last time he was conscious. Hospice came on Sunday and told us that he was in a coma……he seemed like he was in a deep sleep. Sunday marked 8 weeks since we had brought him home from the care center.
I’m not going to lie and say that it was easy taking care of him…….in the beginning we both thought he could get better but the pain continued to be excruciating and it was difficult to get him to eat and drink. As he got weaker and weaker I found myself doing things I never thought I would be able to do, dad said the same thing and was grateful that I could help. His wish was not go to a nursing home and I was able to do that for him.
Many times I got frustrated and didn’t think I could do it any longer and several times I broke down. In order to cope I had to finally tell myself to remember when my children were small and kept me busy all the time. When it was nap time that is when I could clean house, read a book or……take a nap. Diapers, feeding…..it is no different no matter what age someone is.
It was May 15th when I first took him to the hospital and unfortunately……he was in pain all of time until we got Hospice. They were wonderful and so caring and made dads last days much more comfortable.
Monday was also the day that my grandson started college in Salt Lake City, Utah. His mom and grandfather drove him out, I had planned on going before dad got sick. I have talked to him and he sounds happy, I can’t wait to visit him! Best of luck Xander, I love you!
I have also been babysitting little Tasha (she is on a quilt I’ll be sharing tomorrow). She’ll go home today which will make Sadie happy. I have done little blogging and quilting in the last 5 months, it will take a bit before I get back into my routine and spend most of my time quilting again but don’t worry……I’ll be here!
Thank you for your prayers for dad all this time and also for continuing to visit my blog!